Mommin’ on a prayer.

Lets be real, being a mom is TOUGH as nails some times.

We’ve all been on the dirty side of a diaper cussing in our heads (or out loud) about the mess or how the wipes are on the other side of the room and how I should have grabbed them before going to the living room to change this shit shower.

If you have more than one child chances are you’ve had a rough day or two. Some days the mood swings and persistent questioning of every action we perform are TOO MUCH.

YES YES being a mom is a gift from the heavens. It’s a blessing, and occasionally a curse. (kidding, kidding)

We are all just learning as we go. I’m not perfect, my parenting skills aren’t perfect, but I am determined to better my mommin’ one day at a time.

That doesn’t mean I don’t get frustrated or feel overwhelmed. You’d be a robot if you didn’t feel all the emotions ever named raising tiny humans.

One amazing thing I’ve learned is if one day sucks rocks, we go to bed, wake up and its a new day filled with new experiences and chances to make the best of the unpredictable.

Do you ever think back, before you had children, and think why you wanted them???

I do.

I still remember, before my boys were Earth side my motivation for having kiddos was to   make a difference in the world. I wanted to love someone unconditionally so hard that it made me strive for greatness every damn day.

I want my boys to know that dreams DO come true. That they can accomplish ANYTHING that they invest hard work and dedication into.

To love everyone. Give kindness FREELY. Encourage compassion.

Inspire your children to strive for greatness and to dream BIG. It is so important to instill in your children from a young age to manifest thoughts into reality.

Children are more susceptible to these thoughts because they are imaginative and open minded. They aren’t as affected by societies negative perceptions of making dreams come true as us adults.

As an adult we’ve been programmed to stay safe, make safe career choices, don’t take risk because what if.

Our children haven’t been programmed by society yet, so encourage them to be kind, live in love, and dream.

What do you tell your kiddos?

Do you inspire them to be what ever they find passion in?

Do you constantly tell them no, you can’t do that. Thats not possible. You’re not capable.

What are a few dreams you have for your children?

If you’re reading thinking what the fuck just happened this post took a turn… I’m thinking the same thing. It got REAL QUICK.

haha. Gotta keep it interesting, right?

 

with love,

Em.

 

Unplugged thoughts of a young mother.

Being a human being with an active subconscious I have been contemplating writing this post for quite some time. Fearful of judgement caused by the raw thoughts itchy at my mind. But being transparent is something I strive for everyday. Honesty and openness in hopes that someone who feels the same way knows they are not alone. 

Just a little background I am 24 years young with two toddlers ages 2 years old and 3 years old. 

I knew from a young age I wanted to be a mother. I would play with baby dolls and imagine what I would name my son or daughter in the future. I had a life like babydoll that I took with me almost everywhere till I was 12 years old… I kid you not. I loved that thing. Lol

Fast forward a few years I’m 20 years old committed to the man of my dreams it’s Friday night November 23rd, 2013. We are at the hospital bring our eldest Earthside and I still remember all these thoughts racing through my mind. Thankful that he was healthy and finally here. Instantly I loved being a mom. Of course there were days I struggled with allowing myself to understand that it was okay to know nothing about being a parent. I strived for perfection. Thankful to be in a partnership with a man who loved me and was dedicated to his family. 

Fast forward again about 8 months I found out I was pregnant again and I was bombarded with thoughts of fear. 

What would my parents think? How would we love another baby as much? How will I fulfill my dreams and passions? 

Of course in most cases we are in control of when we become parents. I know this. Thankfully in due time I made peace with the birthing another tiny human. Fear turned into joy. Our second was born February 6th, 2015 early but healthy. 

I was in about 4 hours of active labor and conquered a major goal for myself. Birthing naturally with no epidural. I felt empowered, grateful for this body that was able to do what it was made to do. All fears subsided and bliss entered with this new little boy. 

Our boys are 14 months apart and although it’s been challenging I wouldn’t have it any other way. 

That brings me to these thoughts. Seeing other 20 something year olds: in college, starting their careers. Dating and going on trips without any obligation to raising a human being. Sometimes I wonder what would life be like? What would I be doing? Would I be striving for the same goals? 

When these thoughts first entered my mind I was mad at myself. Your boys are healthy and your in a partnership with an amazing human being. You have it great your life is great. 

The more I thought on this the more I grew to understand to make peace with these thoughts process them and release. After contemplating for quite some time I am thankful to be a young mother. I am thankful to be apart of something greater than myself. I am grateful to love unconditionally. 

And I know for a fact I wouldn’t be striving for my best self without my husband and boys in my life. I wouldn’t have these amazing goals and dreams for myself and our lives. I am more empowered, more loving, more compassion because I am a mother. 

Yes, I have had to make sacrifices in places like my career and self love. But I am working on balance. I wouldn’t be where I am today without those sacrifices that have made me stronger. 

I thoroughly believe everything happens for a reason. Allowing these thoughts to be processed and released is so important. They remind us that we are human and we are still striving towards our true potential.

 Being raw and vulnerable brings transparency. 

Motherhood is indescribable at times. Overwhelming but it is also joyful and rewarding. 

I’m thankful to be a young mom. I am proud and empowered to let others know they are not alone. Keep striving to be the best version of yourself and never settle, because you my friend are capable of greatness. 

A few of my fav things💗

Golly gee it’s been too long. I haven’t been consistent about blogging this past week. Anywho I’ve always loved makeup, but have struggled with finding products that work well with my sensitive skin. After trying multiple products I’ve discovered several that I love and highly recommend. Don’t worry I’m not sponsored, so these are my honest opinions. 

  1. Tarte Amazonian clay BB tinted moisturizer➖ this product is light weight and delivers optimum coverage. This tinted moisturizer is loaded with antioxidants and formulated without the use of phthalates, mineral oil, gluten, and sodium lauryl sulfate. I have had zero irritation with this product and love the way I have light natural coverage all day long with one☝️ application. You can find this amazing product at Ulta, Sephora, or online.
  2. Tarte Maneater Mascara ➖ equipped with 360 degrees of tiny fiber like bristles you get drama and length in a few sweeps. Once again I have sensitive skin this includes my lashes and eye area. With some other brands my eyes get red and irritated. I am happy to report that is not the case with this product! Love it, also maneater doesn’t leave residue below the eyebrows after application. Which I had an issue with younique mascara. 
  3. Tarte Creamy Powder Foundation ➖ with more coverage than the tinted moisturizer it gives for a porcelain look without the feel of caked on makeup. Long lasting coverage and works well with my sensitive skin. 
  4. Physicians Formula Full Coverage Concealer ➖ gives a photo ready finish. My under eye skin is very sensitive and this product hasn’t irritated it yet! 👏🏼 the only issue I have with it is that when I first started using it too much came out at once which caused me to waste a lot of product👎🏽 
  5. Tartelette In Bloom Pallet ➖ deep neutrals with a blend of matte and shimmery shadows. I love the colors and the shadows do not smug off at the end of the day. I have noticed so far that a little goes a long way which is nice as well. Since there is several matte options I use them to fill in my brows as well! 
  6. Ulta tinted lip balm ➖ pink velvet ➖ I love the color and the simple ingredients such as shea butter. Keeps my lips feeling moisturizer and pretty. Only dislike is the taste. Not that I lick the lip balm but when some gets in your mouth it’s not very tasty. So if you can avoid it, I don’t recommend tasting it… lol
  7. Badger Lip Tint and Shimmer ➖vegan double sided tint! Love the summery color and their is two shades. It doesn’t have a nasty taste and does have a beautiful color. Moisturizer and stays on well. I highly recommend. Purchased from Sprouts. 

🔆if you having questions about these products drop them in the comments below! If you have makeup that you love I’d love to hear what you use!
With love,

Em💗

Oh Monday.

Mondays are my Sundays because I currently work Tuesday thru Saturday. I usually spend my Mondays doin’ mom/ wife sh*t, like laundry and cleaning. 

This past Monday we decided to go to the zoo. Its been on my heart lately to partake in more “fun activities” with the boys. My husband Cal’s schedule has changed recently so he was able to come as well. We loaded up the wagon and the boys – to the zoo we went! 

We have a membership thanks for nonie and papa so we get to go as often as we want. Which would be every day if it were up to Caybren and Ander. This summer the Houston Zoo has Lego Art… it’s amazing. Since we are members we get to venture through the exhibit at a discounted rate. Check out their website for more benefits of a membership.


The boys love to go around and look at all the animals, unfortunately they are not fans of sitting still so a lot of times we are letting them out and then when the boys take advantage of their freedom putting them back in the wagon. Lol 

I love how excited Caybren and Ander get, it’s so genuine. “Look look mommy a cute monkey!” Caybren shouts. “Look look” Ander shouts. He (Ander) still speaks cave man so it usually takes some time to understand him. 

Any who, we decided to check out the Lego Art and it was great! Hard to believe people put all of it together with their hands. Our oldest is trained well, he stood by each figure and shouted, “take a picture, take a picture!” 


As you can imagine it was adorable. Almost everything they do is adorable. Lol 



My goal when going on adventures with the boys is to take everything in and enjoy the moment. I’m guilty of getting all strung up about the way the boys are acting out or not listening. So I remind myself to take a deep breath and enjoy the moment. They are only two and three once, with as quick as time flies I want remember every moment I’m blessed with them. Including my husband, I’m thankful for the times he’s able to partake in our adventures as well. 

It was a great way to spend a few hours and as always the boys didn’t want to leave. If you haven’t been to the zoo in a while go explore. It was great fun and I highly recommend the Lego Art exhibit. 

Happy Tuesday!

With love,

Em

Family adventures.

When we actually do get out of the house we like to go on adventures. We call our outings adventures to, in essence bribe Caybren out of the house. Ander, our youngest is very go with the flow. Caybren doesn’t seem to like change, he has to be convinced.

Thus every time we leave the comfort of our apartment its an adventure.

Some food for thought: our boys are a year and two months apart, when I first went out with the two of them alone it was scary and unpredictable. With planning and patience I got through it, thus allowing me to appreciate the times when I had assistance going out with them.

Now with Caybren and Ander being toddlers I’m back in the “scary and unpredictable” phase. Thankfully this adventure was accompanied by my amazing husband.

Saturday I got off of work close to 6pm and spur of the moment we decided to go to Baybrook Mall. They have expanded the mall outside and there is some awesome restaurants and shopping!

After eating at Uberrito, we ventured off to explore the outside mall. In the center of the several stores and restaurants there is a grassy area with a big screen. No movie was playing but the kids were frolicking around. We got the boys each a yummy lollipop from It’ Sugar (candy store) and hung out on the steps. Of course this lasted all of maybe a minute for Ander, he wanted to run around with the kids and his lollipop. (Not happening. lol)

Then Ander decided he was gonna run off down the walkway. Hence prompting our adventure through the mall.

We often forget to bring a stroller, which is occasional hell so I don’t know why I keep doing myself the injustice of being forgetful… Not having a stroller having to we end up carry Ander, because he loves to run off and get into EVERYTHING. This time we found an abandoned mall fire truck stroller that the boys couldn’t resist.


Caybren would instruct Cal (my husband) “hurry there’s a fire, that way!” “To the rescue!”

As you can imagine it was adorable and humorous.

That leads me to our last adventure of the day, my husband assisting Caybren in one of those virtual reality thingys… I’m not sure exactly what it’s called but they put on the goggle looking device that was connected to a tv so they could experience a roller coaster in dinosaur land.


Of course Caybren loved it and poor Ander was crying and screaming because he wasn’t able to participate. Once the ride/ movie ended Caybren was now unhappy because he wanted to do it again.

As we continued to walk around the rest of the mall the stores were closing and it was time to end our adventurous Saturday night. All in all my anxiety only reached a level 5, with no major incidents so it was a success.

In conclusion, what are some of the adventures you like to go on with your family?

Do you find yourself enjoying the little things?

Or do you spend too much time dwelling on the inability to control your toddlers every growing desire to get into everything and anything.

With love,

Em

Momhood.

According to dictionary.com the word “motherhood” is defined in three parts.

1. “The state of being a mother; maternity.”

2.”The qualities or spirit of a mother.”

3. “Mothers collectively.”

Now, some of you are probably thinking, “wth” why did she google & define motherhood… Everyone has their own definition of this beautiful word, it means something different for each of us. For me, there is an immense amount of emotion behind this word.

For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a mother.

Upon graduating high school, in conversation with my friends, I mentioned I would become a mother in my early twenties. At the time I didn’t put too much thought into  this statement. We were just making conversation reminiscing on what could be.

Friends came & went, I met an amazing man when I was 18 years old, who would become the father of my boys and my husband. Fast forward a few years and I was graced with motherhood at 20 years old.

I’ll rewind a bit, but before Caybren we suffered 2 miscarriages… (ill save those stories for another post)

In those times I was in such a hurry to become a mom, I’m not fully sure why because this shit is as much rewarding as it is challenging. lol. Anyway miscarriage is hard emotionally and physically, but once I was able to get past the pain, and make peace with God’s timing is when I had a successful pregnancy.

Thus Caybren Jax Adams was born and I was born into this amazing community called “Motherhood.”

Life with kids is not all cupcakes and unicorns. This shit is a struggle. I have to take deep breaths and count to 10. I lose my cool and get angry. We all make mistakes, NO ONE is a perfect parent. But every experience is a learning one and I am so grateful to be a mom. To have these perfect tiny humans looking up to my husband and I. We get to assist in molding these beautiful creatures in to kind, compassionate, loving, humble, respecting people, who will hopefully make a difference in the world one day.

Just remember you’re not alone, we all struggle with the challenges and joys of motherhood.

Whats your definition of motherhood and what does it mean to you?! Leave me some love(responses) below.

 

With love,

Em

 

 

Alone time, what’s that?

When you get in the bath and you’re FINALLY allowing for some much needed alone time…the echoing sounds of motherhood radiate from the other side of the bathroom door and in that moment you realize your not alone…

I TRY to have a positive outlook on situations.

So after the initial negative thought I was lead to…
“I guess on the flip side… it’s nice to be missed?…”

 

There is so MANY “what to expect when you’re expecting” books out there but I don’t feel that they do a good job of telling you all the things you will no longer get to do ALONE.

Ex: take a shit… Once your offsprings hit the toddler phase they follow you around like a puppy… hell even before that they do.

Example #2: taking a shower. God forbid you have to take one while your child is awake& they sense with their spidey senses that you are attempting to get ready without their presence.

Brushing your teeth… really anything dealing with the bathroom that’s their favorite room in the house. (at least for my tots)

Peacefully grazing the isles of the grocery store. Never again. Take the newborn/ infant stage in, when they nap while you shop. Once they become a toddler it’s bipolar central. While you’re holding them entering the store everything is great(occasionally), as you attempt to place them in the grocery cart its high pitched screams! And no bribery doesn’t always work.

Being  a parent is such a blessing though, I do love it. But let’s be honest it has its ups and downs. And I’m here to bring you to reality about that.

That’s all I’m sayin’.

What else… lemme think…

OH watching your favorite shows or a movie. Once that toddler stage hits its Super Why, Nursery Rhymes, and Little Einstein’s: for EVERYONE. Usually if you have other devices it’s easier to occupy them. Then the tots subconsciously “share” (meaning until their short attention spans notice you have the “big” tv.)

 

With love,

Emily